Why do I blog? Why do you blog? I know why I do this. It’s cheaper than therapy. It satisfies my ego a little. It’s the only journal I’ve ever kept up. It keeps my family in the loop. Here’s the most important.
It makes me feel connected to all of you.
Some of you I know well, ie: Mommy, Grandmom, Karen, Calum, etc. Some of you I know a little, we are friends and we get together every now and then. Some of you I have never met, but you feel like friends.
I am a single Mom. WOW, you never guessed, ha! I have a five and seven year old daughter and an ex-husband who rarely follows through when he says he is going to spend time with them. I am not exaggerating when I say I RARELY GO OUT. Seriously, who has time? And when you do have some time, who wants to take the time to put on nice clothes, makeup, actually make sure your hair looks decent. Umm, excuse me I have dates with books, movies and the occasional television show.
But my computer. Well, it’s always here. Yes, right here in the living room. Where the kids are playing, where I can run over while cooking dinner, cleaning the house, doing laundry, OR, avoiding these things.
You are a diverse bunch, let me tell you. Much more diverse than I would find in my little town of 1700 rural folks.
You are married, you are single, you are Moms, you are Dads, you are sewing gurus, you cannot sew a button, you are a lawyer, a graphic artist, a farmer, a work at home mom, a stay at home mom, a stay at home dad. Your kids are public schooled, private schooled, unschooled, homeschooled, earthschooled. You live in England, in Australia, in Canada, in New York, in Vermont, in Arizona, in Washington, or heck, I don’t know where you live.
You voted for McCain (ok, a few), you voted for Obama. You are a gourmet, vegetarian, vegan. You have an Etsy shop, you love your kids, you are soooo funny I almost pee my pants, you make me think everyday about being a parent, you make me think about what it means to you to be a Christian, a Buddhist a Pagan.
When I feel overwhelmed I visit you. Sometimes I comment, sometimes I don’t. Sorry, married parents, but sometimes it hurts too much to read you and I read my single parent friends. Sometimes single parents, your dating drives me crazy and I read my married friends. Sometimes my creative gurus, your genius drives me crazy and I can barely read you, other times you give me inspiration.
The other night I put a blog post up that maybe a select few of you got to read before I took it back down. I was angry and hurt and posted an angry entry about my ex and how he breaks my and my kids hearts.
I pulled it down, because as you know, you shouldn’t blog emotionally angry or drunk, definitely not drunk, which Mommy, Grandmom, Karen and Calum, I WAS NOT. I was angry and hurt.
BUT, a couple of you read it and sent me your sympathy and best wishes. YOU have no idea what that did for me. I was here, by myself at 10 p.m. but you supported me. It made me cry, because you don’t know me, at least not personally. To have your family support you is a wonderfully fantastic thing, but to have people you have never seen face to face support you in the face of a crisis is perhaps the most amazing thing that has ever filled my heart.
So, please keep reading me. I know I’m all over the place, but that’s me. Do it because I love reading you and I need you. You keep me sane and if you ever think, like I sometimes do, why the hell am I doing this, remember I am reading and probably a lot of others are too.
I am hosting (sorry Dad’s) the Best of The Mommy Bloggers Carnival on November 18th, and I know there are a lot of you out there!!!! So send me your best post from the last four weeks and I’ll put a link on here for all those in my little corner of the world to read. Have added, oh, I don’t know how many more mama’s to follow this way. Send them to jistvan1 (at) yahoo (dot) com. If you missed the November 4th carnival, it’s over here at A Modern Mother.
I joined this nifty swap the other day over at Going Sew Crazy and couldn’t wait to get started AND I am so excited because my intended recipient is PERFECT for me. I am so inspired. I have never met her and she’s across the country from me, but I read her blog yesterday and can’t quite wait to ship this out to her.
Also, joined the Children’s Christmas Book swap over at Mommy Holly, because I am an absolute children’s book freak! No kidding, would buy them even if I didn’t have kids. It’s open until November 14th.
This swap thing is new to me, but I love surprises (to give and receive) in the mailbox so I am sooo excited. For more swaps, I recommend checking this site, Swapdex. But I found mine just by reading my blogroll.
Oh, yeah, and thanks for reading this, love and hugs 🙂