lilacs. bursting forth in the front yard. taken right before sunset. everything it seems right now is in bloom. the trees that had buds just a week ago have sprouted baby leaves. green has made it’s return.
sometimes it sneaks up on you when you aren’t even looking, this blossoming.
i feel in bloom. i’m just shy of having lost ten pounds. i am working out and feeling my body come alive. i am filling myself with healthy food. i put some standards away and have started listening to music with a positive message. i saw my ex-husband yesterday and he just seemed like “someone i know”. i sat in the backyard and laughed with my daughters, my aunt and my grandmother. i watched bluebirds scoping out a nest in my backyard. i made a brilliant batch of bean soup with the leftover easter ham. i took Boo to a birthday party on her own. i sat in Starbucks and shared a berry coffee cake slice with Ems, just the two of us. i took the camera for a walk. we ate dinner outside.
sitting down tonight and taking a minute at the computer writing this i realize something. right now, something that had eluded me for some time has finally settled in.
i am happy.