if only i could keep them like this….forever. i know it won’t happen, cannot happen. a couple of friends have recently had babies, and oh, how i remember those times and thinking if they could only stay like this forever. i review photos from toddling years, chubby cheeks and small legs, and i remember, oh how if they would only stay this way. we are here now… girls. and yet still, i wish…….
boo talks to me now about questions that are larger than life. she is empathetic, intuitive.
ems is starting to pull away, doing more and more on her own. it makes it easier for me, but it makes me sad. she seems to have her own mind these days….
i know these small, big girls. they are my own, but more and more i begin to realize they are not. they are their own, i am just their guiding hand.
thank God for those of you who have done this before me. who have written to show me the way. i am scared for the future. how one mama will handle the turmoil and rebellion of the coming years. you keep me full of hope for the moments to come.
i say it many times a day. me and the girls. i hope we will continue to be that forever……..